In the beginning is life

In the end death.

on the day you were born, I looked at the lines of your palm

the line of life was missing 

They drag a frail child by the legs  towards the cliff 

I saw the scars on your calf

I didn't  have time 

nor did I go to look 

Mom, you don't need to hide the sharp kitchen knife

I'll find ways to prove how useless you are

When they talk about death, you can't forget it

There is a death that is more terrifying than mine

I reached the cliff after throwing my passenger into a trash bin

-What are you going to do to me?

-Whatever the catalog says.

You're made to believe that  you can walk on ceilings  

and that's  good 

because you can try 

and sometimes you walk on walls 

and it's okay if  you won't be able to walk on ceilings.

​ Aunt Argine jumped from the balcony

I found her fallen on the sidewalk in two pieces 

her lonely head covered in blood 

Alexandra faints 

as she ran down the stairs to see her broken mother

a red stream flowed down the stairs 

She asked for a knife

I give her Yiota's  white, harmless one 

-Not this one !

I want the one you've been hiding from me four whole years!

He found it  

he would kill someone to reincarnate him into a better person.

It is necessary to die so that a  higher self can be reborn.

(who says such bullshits?)

A dagger like a sword  stuck in the ground  

what scared  me most 

was that final sound when it clicked  into its case. 

Clack!  ​

His quiet  gaze as  he approached death

he was staring creepily inside him

at the needles piercing his skin

the heroin flowing through his veins

it is there that he had placed his suitcase with the crystal cactus

weak in the face of irreparable death.

Injured facing hopeless reality.

I'll kill myself at the park  so I don't worry anyone

Self-harm , Oh a great word!

You came home

I open the door

with eyes closed you fall into my arms 

I don't know how to save you Twitty 

I didn't make it either.

 in a torturous way  they throw you vertically inside a well 

head first 

you were kicking your feet  at the edge of the well 

then it was my turn.  

You shot me with a gun  with a long white cord

in my heart

then you shot yourself

My shirt sticks to my breasts from the blood 

logically we should have died.

in the hospital they greet us by our first names 

they managed to stitch up the child

but not me

With their breaths in our open mouths  they will pass on  their disease 

a girl was mocking life and danger  

God came down from heaven 

I broke him into pieces.

We sit in the back seats 

and while I chew pieces of God like candy 

in the trunk you find a dead girl inside a black trash bag  

we chose the route with exclamation marks in triangles

At 9:00 you swallowed 68 pills

I found you blinded in the woods

blood like tears rolling from your left eye.

I will remember a red noon fallen on dry grass

I saw you crawling with torn skin

noon in the intensive care

with oxygen mask

with suction cups on the heart

they emptied two buckets of blood from one noon

yes, they emptied two buckets of blood

the best I could offer you was this

that you are alive noon!

Five hours later I found your glasses in the same dry grass

in the evening your farewell letter

I thought, how is it possible to write that I'm a good mother?

There are some spots with openings I sink 

I swim in the ocean , but I don't know how to turn 

I'm worried I won't find your body 

from afar I saw you in a white boat  I was glad to see you well

you were traveling towards a large white ship

Where is that ship going?

Who is it carrying?

How far will it go?